Day 3: Emotional Ups and Downs!

Emily Miller, an intern who has been here since September and is leaving Sunday, gave a very powerful and touching testimony about her internship tonight during our worship time. She was just so encouraging, especially to me who has just started my internship. I’ve experienced a roller coaster of emotions in these first few days- I have felt homesick and happy, as well as scared and excited all within the same minute. I still feel disconnected to many of kids because of the language barrier. I’m scared and hesitant to start a conversation with many of the older ones because I’m scared that they won’t be as forgiving for my language mistakes as the younger ones. And I thought I was the only one who was experiencing this since my Spanish is not as good as all of the other interns, but after hearing her talk I learned that I’m not alone and that she experienced the same exact things. A lot of the feelings that she had at the beginning of her internship are similar to the ones I’m having. I’m also feeling a bit useless at the moment since we haven’t really gotten into the swing of things. But Emily reminded all of us to not get discouraged and to continue to seek God in our hard times. I pray that God can comfort my heart and give me patience and the ability to allow Him to guide me in this service for Him. It was also really encouraging to talk with Christy and Caleb, a young missionary couple here at the Children’s Home. We were talking about this summer and they were both super excited and talked about how much fun it is going to be! I truly believe God put me in conversation with them at that table this afternoon as a way of bringing peace and comfort to my mind and to ease my worries. I am also continuing to pray that I can completely give myself over to God this summer. I still feel like I’m trying to control some parts of my life. Satan is trying to hold on and pull me down. I’m thankful, though, that God has helped me become aware of this so that I can ask for his help in completely giving him control. I continue to ask for your prayers- that I can let God transform me and guide me in the way that he wants me to go, not only this summer but for the rest of my life. God Bless!